Looking back...

In November 2007, I got a tattoo of a butterfly on my lower right hip area.  A few days ago, I saw a picture of me lying on my back and I didn't have a belly whatsoever!!!  Previously, I had been through a pretty rough divorce and lost a good bit of weight (try 30 pounds).  I was at 115 and I was too little!  Anyways, when I got the tattoo, it was to serve as my reminder to always be happy no matter what.  Of course, at that time I was thinking of relationships. 

Here is a picture of me in the summer of 2008.

Look at my little self!  I believe I weighed around 125 pounds.  And at the time, I was hoping to get smaller!  (Go ahead...call me crazy)  This was the bathing suit that I didn't DARE wear out in public!!  Today I DEFINITELY wouldn't wear it out in public. 

Fast forward  2 1/2 years...Today, I am remarried and weigh about 20 pounds more than I did in that picture.  And I hate my body now!!  I'm almost up to the heaviest I have ever been (minus pregnancies...I've got 2 wonderful kids and 2 wonderful stepkids). 

This morning as I was looking in the mirror trying on a tankini (contemplating taking before pictures) I got to looking at my butterfly tattoo.  I have grown so much in these past 2 1/2 years.  I went from being at rock bottom to being treated like a princess by the most wonderful husband EVER.  I realized that the butterfly has a new meaning to me.  To get back to being around 125.  And that my friends...is what I'm shooting for!

What is your motivation?  What are you shooting for??