Looking back...

In November 2007, I got a tattoo of a butterfly on my lower right hip area.  A few days ago, I saw a picture of me lying on my back and I didn't have a belly whatsoever!!!  Previously, I had been through a pretty rough divorce and lost a good bit of weight (try 30 pounds).  I was at 115 and I was too little!  Anyways, when I got the tattoo, it was to serve as my reminder to always be happy no matter what.  Of course, at that time I was thinking of relationships. 

Here is a picture of me in the summer of 2008.

Look at my little self!  I believe I weighed around 125 pounds.  And at the time, I was hoping to get smaller!  (Go ahead...call me crazy)  This was the bathing suit that I didn't DARE wear out in public!!  Today I DEFINITELY wouldn't wear it out in public. 

Fast forward  2 1/2 years...Today, I am remarried and weigh about 20 pounds more than I did in that picture.  And I hate my body now!!  I'm almost up to the heaviest I have ever been (minus pregnancies...I've got 2 wonderful kids and 2 wonderful stepkids). 

This morning as I was looking in the mirror trying on a tankini (contemplating taking before pictures) I got to looking at my butterfly tattoo.  I have grown so much in these past 2 1/2 years.  I went from being at rock bottom to being treated like a princess by the most wonderful husband EVER.  I realized that the butterfly has a new meaning to me.  To get back to being around 125.  And that my friends...is what I'm shooting for!

What is your motivation?  What are you shooting for?? 



I Want a FLAT Belly!

I know, I know....I should be concerned with my health, and I am, but I really REALLY want a FLAT belly!  I would be lying if I said otherwise.  Hey, at least I'm being honest!  :) 

On Monday, I went to the library looking for some diet/healthy living books.  I noticed a bright yellow and hot pink book and had to check it out.  It is called the Flat Belly Diet! Cookbook.


Look at that cupcake on the front!  Looks delish!  Last night I finally had a chance to google some reviews on it.  There were lots of great reviews.  I also found a lady who had journaled her experience on My Fitness Pal, you can find the post here, and it has me curious.  So, I think I will start it on Saturday.  I have my menu planned and my grocery list ready for the grocery store tomorrow!  I'm very excited!

Oh and last night I worked out on the wii for 43 minutes!  I found a routine somewhere online and did it.  I can really feel it in my legs and glutes this morning!  Yeah baby!!!!

I guess that is all for now.  I'm trying to think of a motto for 2011.  I've noticed other bloggers doing that.  So, we shall see!  Have a fabulous day!

Valentine's Day Challenge

Today I am starting my Valentine's Day Challenge!  I hope to lose 10 pounds by Valentine's.  That will give me almost 6 weeks.  I think I can do it.  My hard days will be New Years Eve and our trip to Disney at the end of January.  I am hoping and praying that I can still make good food choices and get some workouts in. 

I have been on My Fitness Pal off an on for I'm guessing a year.  I did an ok job in October trying to post my foods and exercise, but I fell off the bandwagon.  I'm notorious for starting and not finishing.  For example, blogging.  I think this is my fourth or fifth blog.  Ha!  Anyways, my point is, I'm hoping to do better this time around.  I WILL do better....I hope....haha!  I will log my food and exercise on the site and post in the community.  I think posting more in the community will give me the support I need.  Not that my husband isn't supportive, but every bit counts!

Since I'm great at starting, but not great at the finishing, I'm not really going to say I'm doing a particular video or exercise program.  My goal is to at least get to doing SOMETHING!  I work a desk job, so I need to get moving!  I have the TurboJam: 5 Rockin' Workouts (BeachBody) dvds, Jillian Michaels - 30 Day Shreddvd (killer workout), and Santa brought me the Wii Fit Plus with Balance Board (so much fun).

And my stats...can't believe I'm posting this for all of webland to see, but here it goes!

Starting Weight 144 (ugh) at 12/27/10
Mini-goal Weight 134 by 2/14/11
Goal Weight 125 by 3/31/11

Here goes nothing!